even at the ripe old age of . .

even now
i fall prey to
over thinking
every idea
that tickles
my heart.
over analyzing it.
“will they like it?”
i ask,
not even know who
“they” is.
(or is it “are?”)
(and does that
question mark go
inside the ” “
or out?)

i begin to
craft a paper
filled with
my ideas,
shared in words
that show my
of every
sure to confront me.
and first thing you know,
i’m paralyzed,
my enthusiasm
grown cold,
if i can even
what i was
so excited about
in the first place.

what i want
more than anything
is to pounce.
i tell you
onto something
just because
it turned
the head of
my heart.
i want to
ride that interest
another one
comes along
and turns
my heart
in another direction.

i want to pounce
and follow
without apology,
without defense.

so why don’t i
do this
simple thing?

“would people
pay for this?”
never fails to
knock my
legs out from
under me,
sending me back
to the want ads
where everything is
in black and white.

and then
before you know it,
another idea
capturing my
curling its
finger at me
with undeniable
and it
starts all
over again.

it takes
a blog post from a
loving, wise friend,
supportive, understanding,
text message exchanges
from another
trusted friend,

a phone call from a good,
and loving friend
to toss me a
to pull me back
to solid ground,
hose me off,
and whisper
(because saying it once isn’t
nearly enough when i get like this.)

instead of
putting the lid
back on this box
of old, old junk
and shoving it
to the back of
the closet
i invite it out,
invite it to take a
nice, comfy
spot on my altar
i listen.
with openness,
with love.

don’t even
get me started
on my response
to the word


  1. Anonymous

    Pounce! I, for the record, think everything you do has the Midas touch.

    (I often find myself in the same dilemma. In those moments I try to remind myself that when it’s all said and done, I don’t ever want to ask myself “What if?”)

    • whollyjeanne

      it boils down, i’ve decided through my hours of writing this morning, to worthiness. i see your worthiness, sugar – see it with great clarity. i will champion your worthiness any day, every day. remember that, when your own sense of worthiness sinks. i’m here. always.

      • Anonymous

        Yes, you are absolutely correct. And having your support means more than you will ever know! Thank you! 🙂

  2. Meredith

    If you feel the need to pounce, then by all means do so — unless it’s a cactus or a porcupine you intend to pounce on. In that case, resist the urge. 😉 But all kidding around aside, I’d say you should definitely tell your inner critic to hush while you make magic happen with your words and your myriad talents.

  3. Julie Daley

    heya, darling. no one out there will ever, ever love/support you in the way you can love/support yourself.

    i love the word pounce and for you i have a sense of mixing it with the saying… oh, i’ll just do it… taking a pounce of faith…

    can you take a pounce of faith that what is beckoning you with that sexy little come-on is exactly what you’ve been longing for?

    • whollyjeanne

      ah, my wise friend speaks once again, her words like church bells peeling in the distance. me thinks that pounce of faith of which you speak is precisely that: what is at the root of this longing.

  4. Angela

    I also love the word pounce!  Yes, Jeanne, pounce!

    • whollyjeanne

      i pounce, you pounce, we all pounce. how’s that?!

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