Last night was a brightly colored weather calendar.
Rain fell sideways for hours and hours and hours.
Wind threatened to turn our stationary house built upon a rock
into a house boat
and send us down the falls.
Thunder came in one gigantically long clap
that knocked pictures off the walls.
The lightning came indirectly from Mother Nature
as the electricity danced with our generator in a mechanical two-step
It was a frightening night
to say the least.
We woke to an ebullient waterfall
telling us the story of last night in her own language
of loud, full, boisterous falls.
And then I noticed it.
My log was not there.
Years ago, in another night of
raging, threatening weather,
the log was wrested from the place she then called home
and came to perch on the edge of the largest drop
of our waterfall.
Right on the edge, I tell you.
She lived on the edge
in shade and sun,
this log did,
with just enough of each
for her to become her own ecological system.
Plants sprouted on her
grew on her
bloomed on her
then died on her.
The water rushed around her.
The water froze around her.
Beavers skipped over her to get to the other side.
Driftwood pieces scooted by.
Some waved at her,
some didn’t find her worthy of attention.
And still she stayed just the way she was, this bole,
totally un affected.
One summer, she taught Handful how to play her version
of Pooh sticks.
His glee was infectious
just as she knew it would be.
She became my womentor,
I spent many an hour
talking to her
listening to her
learning from her.
I don’t mind telling you
that I already miss her terribly.
I also don’t mind if you know that
I cried my way through the morning.
She may have looked like just a log
stuck on the edge of the falls,
but to me
she was more.
Much, much more.
She was my friend, my guide, my muse.
I admired her steadfastness,
how content she was being
She didn’t try to be water
or a boulder
or a bush.
And you know what?
As good friends as we were,
she never once asked me if the sticks
that attached themselves to her end
made her look fat.
She didn’t allow the rushing water
to steer her from her course
or move her from her perch
or frazzle her.
Nothing phased her.
She didn’t get flashy
or show off
or (try to) steal the spotlight from the falls.
Most people didn’t even notice her
till I pointed her out.
She was who she was
she was where she wanted to be,
she was fulfilling her life’s purpose,
and that was Enough.
I’ve been making some internal changes
in my life of late,
inspired in part
by The Log.
There have been other dramatic storms
since she took up here
so why did she choose last night
to let go and move on?
Perhaps she’s taught me everything I need to know.
Perhaps it was just plain time for her to go.
Perhaps you’ll say
”It was just a log.”
You’d be wrong.
But then again, maybe you’ll say
”I know you’ll miss her
and I understand why.”
and then you’ll be right
and I’ll be grateful.